To sum up the past few months, I'm simply not happy. Now, you'd never know that by the way I act. It's stupid to ACT sad, because it just makes you that much more sad, right? right.
One of my mottos is, "If you don't like something, change it; if you can't change it, embrace it!" and that is what I'm starting with this blog which I hope turn in to much more than just a blog.
So that's what I'm doing today. I'm becoming happy and becoming WHO I want to be.
There are a few things I know are making me unhappy that I can't change:
1) My mom is sick and it's hard for me
2) I feel like a bit of the misfit in my family
So I have to embrace them. I just have to serve my mom more and realize someday I will be married with kids like the rest of my family, but for now I'm just in a different stage in my life.
And there are a few things I know are making me unhappy that I CAN change:
1) My weight. This is the number one thing that I am unhappy about. I know I'm at a healthy weight. I know I don't have to look like a super model to be confident. But guess what? I'm not happy with my body, and if that's the case, then I CAN CHANGE THAT!
more blogs on this to come I am sure
2) I am just tooo busy. Starting today, I am cutting all unnecessary events from my life. If it's not necessary, I'm not going
3) I NEED FRIENDS! Not just like one or two... like a SOLID GROUP of friends. So I've measured out my options and decided to make my wardees my best friends
4) I don't like going to school when all I really want to do is be a COSMETOLOGIST! So...I've decided to embrace it! I'm not going to drop out of school. I strongly believe every person should at least get their Bachelors... plus, I'm pretty much going to school for free. So I might as well enjoy it.
And I've realized, if I save up EVERY PENNY for the next 2 years, when I graduate, I should have the money to go to beauty school... ahhh what a dream come true!
That pretty much sums it up. Those 6 things are making me miserable. But I'm going to change what I can and embrace what I can't!
Here's my "before" haha. It's really not even that bad of a photo of me, but I'm too embarassed to put a bad one up where you can see my arms and such. Oh boy!
Thankfully, through all this. I do have a VERY BEST FRIEND. That's my Heavenly Father. He helps me through everything. We have a very close relationship and I talk to Him every day. And you know what? He talks to me too.
So with Him, my family, my friends, and a good self-kick-in-the-butt every now and then, I know I can be who I want to be
Queen of Everything
